im sorry

sorry for not blogging for so long . didnt have the time nor have the brain cells to do it
grandpapi's body came at 1.ooPM.
the area was filled with heavy heactic emotion.
placed grandpapi's fav clothes. beside his body in the coffin .
i saw his fav shirt . and salt water came down my eyes .
it was too much too handle ><
after his body was sealed in the coffin we started burning "money"
and joss sticks .
at night we were to guard till tomolo
and his body will be sent to his "new house"
i slept at roughly around 1.oo AM and woek up around 4.ooAM
the sleep wasnt good . kept waking up due to noises .
some relatives stayed over . AH MOU SHU-SHU uuuber geng!
he didnt sleep till aroung 6.oo PM in the evening !
dad couldnt stand it and went to bunk at 3.ooAM !
mom around 1 or 2 AM!
every 1 slept in the living room aside from hou hou kor kor . ~


=) will blogging the nex half later or tomolo ~

i should have done it ;

waitig...

not long after me n mei mei reached home
seria SHU-KUNG came.
he was in an upset way,
" where is everyone !??! , why no 1 pick up the phones ! "
all mobile net works didnt work =.=
after 30 mins . everthing was a rush
i rmb seria SHU-KUNG shouting dad shouting
me rushing mom rushing every 1 one was jus confuse
so lost like lost likes ants waiting for a order for comands
seria SHU-KUNG was shouting and rushing to have our names written b4 the reporter came
" we have to do this quik ! if not how is it going to be in thew newspaper? "
not long later they did everything .

big thanks to seria SHU-KUNG for the help his sons and ah po SHU-SHU and ah weing SHU-SHU for the huge help.



seria SHU-KUNG help with the tent the " paper " and coffin and etc ><
huge thanks.



i slept at 3.oo am yesterday .
and woke up at 7.ooAM ish ~
the thoughts of all the silly memories
the family use to have with grnadpapi .


later at around 1.oo PM grandpapi's body will arrive home from the hospital.






promises never done .

it happened too soon...

It happened too soon.
I find myself staring at my sister as she was getting dressed for skool
at 7.15AM after 10 mins she went back into bed
i asked "mei, no skool ?"
she replied me " jie, i have fever."
then i fell back into sleep
woke up at 9.ooAM by a very irritating sound
by my sister's squiky Gameboy button.(she was playing pokemon)
GUGU and AH SAM were going to go to the hospital to look at grandpapi.




the next thing i knew it was around 3.ooPM
GUGU and AH SAM were back from the hospital
and mom just came back from work for lunch
i went down to have my late lunch
and they were having a coversation.
GUGU and AH SAM were talking about grandpapi's condition today
"He is in so much pain, since last night never slept, kept yelling . we don't know what is he waiting for. not to sound rude but seeing him like this suffer it hurts our heart. "
GUGU explained " I told him if he cant stand the pain, just go. no one will blame him . i even ask who are u waiting for? ah kit (MY big brother)?or ah toi(MY 3rd uncle)?
then mom ask " eyy when u ask who u should slow down see reaction who knows u say so fast he cant even nod or anything ''
GUGU even called ah toi(my sec. uncle)!on his cell. telling him "grandpapi almost dying! u want to see him or not! wad son are u! "







*** Screw him to bits from the bottom of my heart!! hate him to the max! so pissed at him not to sound rude and all. when grandpapi went in to the hospital the first day i was the 1 who informed him to tell him grandpapi is in the hospital and i was cry my tear duct off! " ah toi shu-shu, ah yea went in to hospital (in chinese) and u know wad he replied me!?!?!?!! " o.. " so relax tim!
i mean seriously!!! im the granddaughter and ur the son !!?!?!?!.***


After that grandmother woke up not long later
GUGU and AH SAM went back to the hospital
while mom went back to the office.



i can rmb.
it was around 5.ooPM i was watching tv
and my sis joined me after her nap.
it happened really soon.
around 6.15PM.
the phone rang.
mei mei picked it the phone infront of me
" hello,... harh?!?! huh?!?! ..... "
i could tell there was something not right
something harsh from the sound of her tone as she said each confusing word...
i looked at her her eyes the confuse innocent eyes
i ask her " wad? who was tat?"
she answered " baba. ah yea hen yuan zhung liaw "(dad, grandpapi in critical situation)
hou hou kor kor was walking into his room when he heard wad mei mei said
mei mei dressed changed from PJs to normal clothes
and we went straight to the hospital
in the car i was crying and mei mei was also crying.
upon reaching to grandpapi's bed. no 1 was there
as we walked closer. i could see my uncle(AH MOU SHU-SHU)ahead.
we walked to him to find tears in every ones eye.



after while. dad asked if we would like to see him
i went in first then mei then kor kor .
i saw grandpapi. and the tears jus flow uncontrollably..
but i knew it will be better this way..
grandpapi wont have to suffer too much.
after seeing grandpapi, dad told us to go home
as they would be behind our car.



and now im waiting...




rest in piece grandpapi.

toughts.

15. jan ! Uncle shockingly . still rmb how to drive in brunei!
he arrive at around 10 pm at my house alone cause
aunt dun feel well after the flight
shortly after reaching he went with dad
to vist grandpapi...

things honestly dun look so good .
im not cursing or anything but its the truth.
i havent told any 1 about him .
but i need advice lo
recently grandpa de leg has
become totally black
its due to improper blood circulation.

docs. have offered it to be amputated
dad agrees with it.
BUT!!! dun know why !
my grandpapi de all 7 sibling disagree with it
they all say " wan go better in full body form "
but my dad de 3 sibling including him want it to be amputated.
so that the disease will not spread up to his upper body
( better chance of living with less pain )
haiz , IF they do cut it off the 7 siblings would be very upset thus
" FAN LIAN "
haiz . how to do ? wad to do ? so foooooooking #$%^&*(&^%$#@!!!
they dun understand man !

i visited grandpa today
i called out " ah yea ".
and he reached out for me ><
as if to look for the voice where it was coming from !
doctor says he cant see any more !!
i really wanted to cry >
i really cant stand him suffer in horrid pain !
grandmami move him alil bit for diaper change
his facial expression already show that he is in great pain
very upset lo see grandpa like that .
worst of all he cant say where pain !!
see him like this very kerlian

every THAM family member
that is trying their best
to come back

i dun wish to stand by the side and look as if i dun know him nor am a passerby
i really want to help .
i want to fulfill my promise and i haven't even carry it out yet !
sad ! really dun know wad to do .
pass few days cant really sleep =.=
only wake up think of grandpapi man !
think of the wacko stuff we did and wad u did !

i miss the wacky stuff we use to do.

dates...

15 of jan. UNCLE(ah mo shu shu) and his wife (ah sam) arrive in Brunei from Canda.
18 of jan. GUGU and GU-JIONG arrive in Brunei from Canada.
23 of jan. KU-JIE and her husband uncle john will arrive in Brunei , from England.
26 of jan. SHU-GUNG arrive in Brunei from Taiwan.

all our prayers go to you.

retarded sunday =)

ok today is sunday GILA man !!
i 2 days liaw didnt sleep
dun know wads up .
since its sunday ight ?
sure got tamu ( veggie selling place )
so i decided to go O.O!
shockingly right ?=.=
so i sms my dad n told him
i wanna go xD
so they came to pick me up and
well i enjoyed tamu !
HAHAHHA i dun know y but mayb i had dirty taught then ehh
XDDDDDDDDDD!!

WOOT DOES THAT LOOK LIKE TO YOU !!!

ahahhaa!! the first thing i think of was boobs !!xD
and i totally said it out when my dad was beside me
my dad was like huh ? thouse are " po lu " OO !! AHAHAHAHAHA !!!!
my mom was like !! OMG !! " wen hua please !! "
AAHAHAHAHAA but i was laffing my asss off man
and my sis was like omg .. my sis !! xD but she was in discus lo xD!
my dad was like SOOO blur and shock when i said that xD!!

hahahaha!! so ~ now i know y old ppl like to go there!
KEKEKEKEKKEK!!!



after that we went to seria for breakfast =)
then went back home to the old house to clear up some stuff.



another thing happen xD!!

u know arr~~ me trying to impove my chinese and all
so i try to translate everthing from my dad to sister ( cause she knows more chiense T.T ).
around in the afternoon my dad was in the kitchen
suddenly had a phone call O.O!
as i was going out from the kitchen room to the dinning room
smth caught my ears xP
YES I EAVESDROP
he said "... fa dian ji... "
if im not mistaken it means electric generator
so to make sure . i asked my sis
whom was coming out from my room to the hall way
i shouted to her " hey mei ! fa dian ji is generator right? "
then she was like " WAD? fcuk dian ji ?"
no jie ! it means " fcuk crazy chicken "
i was totally stun !

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!


but anyway we finish packing all the kitchen stuff
my room not yet done and the study room still like got alot of stuff x_X


<3s>

memoriesss...

part2 of it all ~~

kekekekee !! lim and alas.
playing tan's
" PRINCESS CARDS !! "
AHHAAHAH!!

lionel ~~
leaving . LEFT in this case
on a jet plain

the guys ~
playing with tan's sword
thinggy =.=

all the while . they company made me feel better =)
very gay ehh ?xDDDDDD

I hear your whisper,
across the sea....

<3

I didn't promise a lot of photos or anything
but these are a few random ones~

This is when we were waiting at" moi nam" xP

i know right ~ so black and bad camera x_X !

lionel ~ vain as he can be xP

<3 .getwellsoon

The outing .

Blogging at " Moi Nam "
today . i woke up at 12 PM! seriously!
12 PM !!how cool is that!!
my dad even give me thumbs up =)
say first time so early =)
xDDDDD!! kekekekek
anyway.
i helped out with my mom's china
then went to new house .
to find that my dad still knows how to play
BASKETBALL!
even 3pointer yo~~
SO GENG !!
then went to dinner with
alas lim tew my big sister and wang.
but wang went away O............O!!!
saw cicilia =)
long time no see her x__________X!



<3 Grandpapi.

very upsetting

honestly i dun feel like blogging today.
but i cant bottle it up.
i eavesdrop and heard about the bad news
about grandpa from papi at the new house just now.
saying that the doctor found out that
grandpas blood has turned black.
woot ever that means by tone of his voice. it aint good
i know that my grandfather's leg is dead
and i know that they cant amputate it cause he is diabetic
but mamehh told me a few days back that
they found out what is wrong with grandpa and they fixed it
and now, its like
" call all the uncle and aunt to tell them about this , even ah kit kor kor too "
gosh !! so sudden really speechless !!
after reach back to the old house
i start to reminisce about the crazy cooked up wacky days i had with my grandpa.
then i stoped myself. i cant think that far yet =)
i shall not .




<3 Grandpapi. please get well soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA !!!

=) hey hey there. Roxanne here ^^
today is the like 2nd of jan 2009?
awesome ehh ? how time flies. anyhu~
today is also my paternal grandfather's
17th birthday !
how cool is that =DD !!
prays he gets better
so that he can join us in the new house soon.