toughts.

15. jan ! Uncle shockingly . still rmb how to drive in brunei!
he arrive at around 10 pm at my house alone cause
aunt dun feel well after the flight
shortly after reaching he went with dad
to vist grandpapi...

things honestly dun look so good .
im not cursing or anything but its the truth.
i havent told any 1 about him .
but i need advice lo
recently grandpa de leg has
become totally black
its due to improper blood circulation.

docs. have offered it to be amputated
dad agrees with it.
BUT!!! dun know why !
my grandpapi de all 7 sibling disagree with it
they all say " wan go better in full body form "
but my dad de 3 sibling including him want it to be amputated.
so that the disease will not spread up to his upper body
( better chance of living with less pain )
haiz , IF they do cut it off the 7 siblings would be very upset thus
" FAN LIAN "
haiz . how to do ? wad to do ? so foooooooking #$%^&*(&^%$#@!!!
they dun understand man !

i visited grandpa today
i called out " ah yea ".
and he reached out for me ><
as if to look for the voice where it was coming from !
doctor says he cant see any more !!
i really wanted to cry >
i really cant stand him suffer in horrid pain !
grandmami move him alil bit for diaper change
his facial expression already show that he is in great pain
very upset lo see grandpa like that .
worst of all he cant say where pain !!
see him like this very kerlian

every THAM family member
that is trying their best
to come back

i dun wish to stand by the side and look as if i dun know him nor am a passerby
i really want to help .
i want to fulfill my promise and i haven't even carry it out yet !
sad ! really dun know wad to do .
pass few days cant really sleep =.=
only wake up think of grandpapi man !
think of the wacko stuff we did and wad u did !

i miss the wacky stuff we use to do.