this happened yesterday =_=

wakes up at 3 pm
after sleeping at 10 am
*looks in the mirror*
red eyes on the >> side
thinking it was a normal reaction
from waking up
* bath finish *
* looks in mirror *
still see red eyes!
thinking it a normal reaction after bathing
dress up
sit infront of computer looking for materials
which is about 6 by then
i still have red eye
* run downs to mom n dad *



xan: MOM DAD ! I HAVE RED EYES !
mom: dont worry =,= its not
xan: u sure?
mom: yup, if u do .. it should be ubber red
xan: ok. ..
dad: can u see this ? * points middle finger *
xan: =________= ! * wacks dad *
dad: SEE ! U CAN STILL SEE =,=

.
.
.
.
.

not only i had red eyes .
i was having this incredible migraine
out from no where .
i woke up at 5-ish in the early
break of dawn!
just to wake up n try to
do soemthing about the headache then
pop back to sleep
waking up around 6.30 am
i still had the migraine weird
terrible. headaches are annoying
went back home n poped some
active fast and went to bed
and jus woke up not long ago

祝我们在的一起一个月

This is why
im hooked with you
happy 1 month
anniversary
我爱你

-xan爱lewis

" don't do this "

Has anyone ever tell you ..
" don't do this "
and well if you have the right / left mind
you would ask
" why ? "
and the person just says
" no explanation , just don't want you to do it "

O____O

like the ABC's of life
we were told..
" IF U DON'T UNDERSTAND , ASK ! "
and
" THERE IS NO HARM IN ASKING ! "
but why do these phrases tend to be
commonly used but are..
sadly in the end
swallowed back down by the same person
that said it O.O
when u ask why ?

i have my fair share of scoldings by my mom for no apparent reason.
and when i ask why ... she seems to get more fused up than a gun in a shoot out.
my dad on the other hand knows me particularly well
that by just yelling and threatening me,
would turn into deaf ears as i would do the complete opposite!


your probably wondering hmm.. this is one tough cookie!
but NO!. you give me a logical explanation i will do a good job.


examples ..

NUMBER 1

Joe: Don't go into the cage!
Jack : why?
Joe: It is not good
Jack : why?
Joe: stop asking and just do as i say!
Jack: why?
Joe: because i said so!
Jack : * goes in the cage and dies! *

Jack wouldnt have died if he only knew what was in the cage,
he went in purely to quench his curiosity.

NUMBER 2

Rex: Don't invite the person to the party
Robin : why not ?
Rex : no reason
Robin : why ?
Rex : i don't like the person
Robin : but .. if u dun like some 1 , u should have something to
support why you hate that person be it the way he dress or
attitude or the way he stands. its still at least a reason to hate
that person
Robin : no.. seriously no reason
Rex : *face palm*

and so many other unmentionable examples x_X
doesnt tat .. annoy you O.O?

-xanLOVESredEYES

ewww!!

today in school was alright
=D! pretty ghay about the results
kekeekek!
came back around 1.37PM?
from GP class
tired as usual

went back home just wanted
to sleep but i saw
TOASTER , fregging dirty
so did the usual thing
dump the water of
container into the toilet bowl
just like usual
and i never once dropped
TOASTER in
then today
HOLY JESUS!
it fell in =,=
POOR TOASTER =(
without hesitation
as if it was my own blood related BABY =,=
used my hand and took it out D:
and i stonned =,=
for a few mins
and realised
what i had done
yes...
EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
but how was i going to get it out ?
impossible i flush right ?=,=

- i miss the man in my heart
=(

HOLY JESUS!

yesterday .. was the first time
in a millennium
since i had a good night
of sleep =_=

slept in the evening around 4/5 PM-ish
and it was fantastic =)
untill my sis came in the room
around 12.30 AM =,=

"JIE.... " when she said that
with her facial expression
Golden Globe Award for best actress .
HOLY JESUS! just by saying that line
it dragged me out from Dreamland

=_= i tough someone died man =(
end up she was watching
"PARRNORMAL ACTIVITY"
and got scared =_= zzzzz

-because i love you

a simple message

Things get quiet, and then out of nowhere you get an innocent text message, e-mail, or phone call. Before you know it, "How's it going?" leads to "Sure, I can meet." which turns into "Why did I break up with him again?" and ends with the question "Should I try this again?" NO!

-開始懷疑我怎麽了

until whenever <3

until whenever..

Don't forget that promise of ours
I'll take care of you until whenever
No matter how sad I am .. I can only laugh
Even though Im tired and hurt .. I can only endure
Even if you leave .. I cannot catch you

Only with your trust can we only be forever

-我♥的只是他

what i ment to say...

what is running though my mind lately..

out a girls mouth
aaarrrrrrrrrgggghh!!
damn u bloody fool !
go out at night till daylight
u know make people damn worry or not ?
go out late get drunk =,=
u driving again
tell u dun drive fast
u oso stubborn DONGKAY!
tell you to text or call but never
left me hanging !

in a girls heart
thank god his fine
i miss him so much
his out with his friends hope he enjoys!
haiz... driving fast again..
lucky he reach home safely
ZOMG HE TEXTED and CALLED ME!

- true events
♥s 达华

DILEMMA!

YES! i am suffering a dilemma =(
wondering if i should get..

Sony Ericsson W995

OR

Samsung F480i

UNCLES!

i hav an uncle
called uncle ka ni na
call me rude but
his name is really
uncle ka ni na


how did it come about ?


uncle donald uncle ka ni na and me were talking
both uncles were playing WOW
half way playing

uncle ka ni na : ..... KA NI NA!
xan : wads ka ni na ?
uncle donald : his name
xan : really ? O.O so .. his name is ka ni na di bao ?
uncle donald : * LAUGHS *
uncle ka ni na : wei wei wei donald!
uncle donald : wad?
uncle ka ni na : dont teach aunty wrong thing la
xan : o.o whats ka ni na ?
uncle ka ni na : ermm .. smth u cannot say
xan : o_O but uncle donald say tats ur name?
uncle ka ni na : uncle donald every time lie! ( I AGRREEE WHERE MY CANDY ?)


ok so after tat we had a long silence n dropped the topic
after they WOW-ed we dota! in

dota again...


xan : UNCLE KA NI NA!
uncle ka ni na : hello hello hello ?!?!
LAUGHS!


.:. uncle ka ni na admit his name is uncle ka ni na coz he ans me hello ! =D!

- to you i mayb nothing;
to some one i am something.

deep shit!

alright . so ..
im up at like 5.52 am
on the 10th of November
which is a Tuesday.
in a few hours .
i will have school
=)
looking at my maths paper marks
oh god SHOOT ME!
=_=
and after tat .
i will have bio paper 1 AS
HOLY JESUS!??!!
=_=

-screwed
xan =)

SAYA CINTA BOBO SAYA, YA!

wo de BOBO

BOBO <3

<3BOBO

'

72 ♥79

♥

De toi à moi
Il y a des choses qui n's'expliquent pas
Tant elles se confondent
Tant elles sont profondes, légères à la fois

De toi à moi
Il y a je crois des mots qui n'osent pas
Des mots qui n'osent plus
Et si nos amours déçus semblaient savoir

De toi à moi.

je t'aime.


72 ♥79

random post

recently have been listen
to heaps of loud music <3
cant take study?
go to music instrument?
cant stand music instrument
go to lound music!

stress pouring in!
bio n maths paper
both same day!
u say die or not ? =(
the luckiest person i think now
would be FAHMI! =,=
as he didn't take maths
but took bio =(

today didn't get to wish
alot of people good luck
in GP =(
feeling guilty

going to get my basset hound!
yes MINE !
ok lah not mine =(
sharing it with mei mei =x
kekeke!
shockingly parents let o_O
young request are always powerful
=,=!


as innocent as it seems
no one is !

tired

slept at 8.30PM weird ehh ?
wake up at 4.30AM =(
by the sound of dad rambling on the door
" WAKE UP ! UR GONNA BE LATE! "
lazily i called my lil sis up
" OI MEI ! WAKE UP !"
which gives me more time to sleep XD


few mins later


" OI JIE ! WAKE UP "
ok mei ...
switch on the light
which light jie? high or low?
high please =)
* BOOM * TOO BRIGHT LAH MEI ! IM BLIND LIAO!


* slowly crawls to the toilet with boxers and T to wash up *
mom comes in room
were going!
O.O ! I not yet dress up lah!


had early breakfast at seria mee stall
headed to bandar stright away
momehh n mei mei de flight was 7- ish
x_X man so tired now x_X

upload more later..

caffeine addiction

x_X i had a few sip of dad's
left over coffee since morning.
it was in the thermo flask
and i tot it was teh tarik
crap! was i wrong ...
i now have wondering eyes
and dead brain =(
HELP !

lovesxan!

men master selective hearing

my Ham Ching Piang send me this XD


What a woman says:
“This place is a mess! C’mon,
you and I need to clean up,
Your stuff is lying on the floor
and you’ll have no clothes to wear,
if we don’t do laundry right now!?”

What a man hears:
blah, blah, blah, blah, C’MON
blah, blah, blah, blah, YOU AND I
blah, blah, blah, blah, ON THE FLOOR
blah, blah, blah, blah, NO CLOTHES
blah, blah, blah, blah, RIGHT NOW

STUPID = Smart Talented Unique Person In Demand


loves xan !

bad or good? o.o

Recently the past few days i have been sleeping early ..
like 11.pm is seriously early sometimes 9.30?
now thats super early x_X!
i even took naps in the afternoon
to regain my energy
and burn night oil but seems like
it doest work.


usually i sleep at like 5.30 am ?
which is only 1 hr sleep b4 school o.o!
now .. it doesn't seem right ..
my study time seems to be a lot less

[l]oves[x]iiaO[a]iikO

Experience is simply the name we give our mistakes.

What are male in the life cycle of a female

Little Girl : Guys are like toys; we just want to play

Girl : Guys are like paper; we want to rip you into pieces and throw you in the gutter!

Teen Girl: Guys are like paparazzi; we want you to follow us

Young Adult : Guys are like lipstick, we want to know what color suits us best

Adult : Guys are like nail polish; we like it, keep it. We hate it, remove it

Married : Guys are like soft toys. we keep you till we die no matter how smelly, run down , saggy broken, we still love you =)

[[` x.a.n_ o7#~.

business meeting . i forgot to post

Dear boss,

RE: Lupa upload picture ! minta maaaaaf!

Regarding on the subject above. There was an important meeting we had a few months(FEB) back which i forgot to upload pictures on beribu ribuan maaf uber sorry.

The conference table and the
business peeps .From the left
we have TMNT next to
him is Ah Wai

Ah Wai and Ben

Roland and Chi-Chi

Hou-Hou was the spectator

some even went crazy due to excess lost of
( he was amazed with my wallet tat can glow! )











Ben's lost trigured Roland
(even ask Roland if this was true)











.:. A shrine was built as good luck in order to scare away evil spirits

♥s xann

what are men like in the life cycle of a girl up next!

fufuvvm !

back home from school at 10.30
not becoz i finish school
i had to come home

just to type a freagging letter.
later need to go back at 12 to attend bio pract
was suppose to go for chem .
but chem is all about lecture today
and bio teacher told me todays pract was " IMPORTANT "
bo bin lo!

SORRY MR ANCLEM!

back to the point
i went back becoz of a stupid letter regarding about
resiting for a Malay exam for the sake of me attending
pre -u in smsa =,=
stupid much ?

but seriously _l_ SHIMMY and YAPPY
it was like this ....

recess in school, went to PS area ,saw Zet-Zet
and started talking not long later Ginny and Danial came by
was talking to Zet-Zet about the letter
as he doesn't seem to be pestered by any teacher to do anything
on the other hand moi ~ was pestered annoyingly by SHIMMY AND YAPPY
after we talked about it
shimmy can to the scene .
when he came i knew it was coz of me!
" si why , go see YAPPY "

i knew it was doomes day all over again =,=
took me awhile to decide to go in
everyone knows YAPPY is bias
sadly im on the blacklisted side of YAPPY
='(
went o her office and see her
she was talking and i really dun seem to bother x_X!
i do care about a lot of things , its seldom i put things at heart
as she was talking i started to drift away singing
Lily Allen's song " fuck you "
and she started asking me a question which i don't bother ans

yappy : you dont seem to be bothered to study in this school is it ?
xan : yup
yappy : then where u wanna study?
xan : i mean i yupi want to study in here
yappy : then why is it tat your not co-operating?
xan : * sings fufuvvvm ! *
yappy : tell me your reason
xan : *snaps back into reality* dont know
yappy : blabbing on .... ~
xan : starts another journey dreaming

then something caught my attention ....

yappy : ..... only you and Michel not yet hand in !
xan : ... are u sure ?
yappy : ...o except for Zet and *some guys name *
xan : o....
yappy : u know any of these two ?
xan : nope
yappy : and who are you to come in here and question me asking me are u sure ?
xan : =,= !! TMD !


so that is why, i don't bother answering her =,= waste saliva and brain cells
its not like i don't bother to correct my letter of appeal or no time to hand in.
the day she told me got spelling error i straight away went back home n correct it then the very nex day i even ask Deborah to check got error on not sia =,= . then no have so i tot thats the green light to hand up who i went to her office during ps . no teacher " OUT " i even tried opening the door then i went during recess " OUT " oso door lock then i went in after school "OUT "oso lock =,= went in nex few days door oso lock tmd =,= so suan liao lo . i wait till they call for me then i go =,=



and this is not the first time i print the letter =) o.. no ~ its like the 4th time =) 2 times letter format not correct tio SHIMMY then 2 spellin error by YAPPY


poor dadehhh ~ keep signing the the same paper over n over again thinking its something different everytime XD!





.:.♪ Fuck You Fuck You V. V. MUCH ♫ ~ =)

[[YoursTrulyXan]]

_l_

today's fav quote " super papaya no shit !"

today's fav quote " super papaya no shit !"

XDD! ahahaha guess who created tat quote ?
my sister?
my momehh ?
my gou gou ?
try slightly harder
moi?
NO!
none of the above!


it wass~~


* drum roll *

my dad XDDDDDDDD

we decided to have papaya milk shake.
dad was the 1 peeling
while the ladies ( mumehh,mei and me) were eating
out from no where he shouts to his amazement
dad: wa! the papaya no seed
me: high breed ma
mei: mutated one
* silence for like 3 sec?*

dad : cool papaya no shit!
* pause for a few sec * looking at my food
resound what i heard
*stares at mom*

* rolls on floor laffing ><





xann⑦#

up up and away!

As the days pass slowly
and another week crawls by
i myself find thinking
about ways how i would die

i lay awake at night
thinking of my plans
there's no way it can get better ;
i have nothing left to gain

suddenly thoughts of death
controls my every move;
every battle with my mind
i always lose

i no longer want to be around
the people i love
all i can think about
is whats waiting up above

i cut my arms with razor blades
to ambush the pain inside
but that can only last so long
i don't want to be alive

i manage to keep my composure
when people are around
they wouldn't understand me
so i don't make a sound

i smile when i have to
i break down when i don't
i know i should be stong
but i know i wont,
i know i cant

so i make a plan to pop some pills
it shouldnt take long , shouldnt it ?
i write out notes to all my friends
to read when im gone

i plan it out so perfectly
i even set the date
im pretty sure im dead ready!
i know this is my fate

my bed is made up neatly
as i take them one by one
i start to feel a little joy
lighting inside

i give in to the darkness
i slowly slip away
i hope i go to heaven
up up and away!

spot the secret message? =)

♥xan

sneak peek on wads coming up

Ladies, pick your men =)

[[sushi night]]

<3ss xannnnnn!!

MARLEY ILOVEYOU!!!

a SPECIAL shout out to my lovely Marley =)
yes , i will forever be her Bob =x
its her brithday (28th february 2009) ,sadly not just
A birthday arr ..
its THE BIRTHDAY!
she is officially 18 ! ~
means arr ~~ the 4 basic things every teen want
DOUBLE S AND DOUBLE D
what is it u may ask ?
it is ...
Sex Drive Drink and more Sex! legally arr ~
kekkeke ~~~
ii wish her all the best in life may she brighten more of my random days
tell me ROMDOM-ER facts
be my sit mate
AND ALSO..
may ur boobs grow BIGGER, lovely-er and sexy-er


ii love lyns marleyy =)

fly dates =)

11th of feb . GUGU and GU -JIONG flying to singapore =)
13th of feb . GUGU and GU-JIONG flying to canada ~
15th of feb . SHUSHU ( AH MOU ) and SAM flying back to canada
2ond of feb. KORKOR ( HOU - HOU ) flying to aussie..

may i roar? =O

the past 3 weeks
was a roller coaster ride
that i wish would stop.
it was like a total mix
of fear, of relief , of tears,
of understanding , of wanting to scream...


thx niik0 for checking on me
thx ben for the caring me
thx yuan for helping me forget
thx jet for the stupidity
thx zet for the annoyance
thx e-mei for bring there
thx ieuan for the lafter
thx edmund for the ghay moments
thx lim & alas for taking my money in gambling!!! =x


not in order *


=)

i miss you still ...

Dear Grandpapi,


How are you ? I am writing to tell you about some random thoughts.

Do you remember within the grounds of our old house we had turtles in the tub ? and they were,bigger than my hands , as huge as yours ? and they were about the same age as Ah kit kor kor? but they died because dad didin't cover up the tub with the zinc roofing?

Well today , at the new house mom found a turtle in the middle of the road as she was coming back from work for lunch. It was a Malayan Box Turtle (Cuora amboinensis) ! it was the same kinda as wad we had a few years back . but this is much smaller ! Im gussing its a baby turtle . Its really cute . I wanted to keep it as a pet . but mom n dad wants it to be set free in to the pond next to our new house .


tons and tons of love

譚思微

weird things are going on in the house .

alright .
all have u know tat my grandpapi passed away and all ~
and in the chinese custom thinggy.
we have to wear white clothes and black / dark blue pants
(as long as dull in colour )
XSPECIALLY NOT RED! .
well in the house ~ we have 10 people wearing the white shirt which was given by my uncle
from seria .

10 clothes which are for:

1. UNCLE(ah mo shu shu)
2. Uncle's wife (ah sam)
3. GUGU
4. GU-JIONG
5. Grand-mami
6. Papi
7. Mami
8. MY brotha
9. My baby sista
10. Me

and after sending grandpapi to his "new house"
we came all came back home and put the white clothes to wash ~
as we have to go back to the " new house "
on the first day of Chinese new year (MONDAY)

the night b4 we went (SUNDAY NIGHT)
we all got ready for the clothes to wear
shockingly ..

2 clothes were missing ! O.O! seriously MISSING!
every 1 in the house went to check their wardrobe
but there was still onli 8 LEFT!

which means O.....O! every 1 is thinking.
GRANDPAPI TOOK IT!!

where did it all go O.O?

im sorry

sorry for not blogging for so long . didnt have the time nor have the brain cells to do it
grandpapi's body came at 1.ooPM.
the area was filled with heavy heactic emotion.
placed grandpapi's fav clothes. beside his body in the coffin .
i saw his fav shirt . and salt water came down my eyes .
it was too much too handle ><
after his body was sealed in the coffin we started burning "money"
and joss sticks .
at night we were to guard till tomolo
and his body will be sent to his "new house"
i slept at roughly around 1.oo AM and woek up around 4.ooAM
the sleep wasnt good . kept waking up due to noises .
some relatives stayed over . AH MOU SHU-SHU uuuber geng!
he didnt sleep till aroung 6.oo PM in the evening !
dad couldnt stand it and went to bunk at 3.ooAM !
mom around 1 or 2 AM!
every 1 slept in the living room aside from hou hou kor kor . ~


=) will blogging the nex half later or tomolo ~

i should have done it ;

waitig...

not long after me n mei mei reached home
seria SHU-KUNG came.
he was in an upset way,
" where is everyone !??! , why no 1 pick up the phones ! "
all mobile net works didnt work =.=
after 30 mins . everthing was a rush
i rmb seria SHU-KUNG shouting dad shouting
me rushing mom rushing every 1 one was jus confuse
so lost like lost likes ants waiting for a order for comands
seria SHU-KUNG was shouting and rushing to have our names written b4 the reporter came
" we have to do this quik ! if not how is it going to be in thew newspaper? "
not long later they did everything .

big thanks to seria SHU-KUNG for the help his sons and ah po SHU-SHU and ah weing SHU-SHU for the huge help.



seria SHU-KUNG help with the tent the " paper " and coffin and etc ><
huge thanks.



i slept at 3.oo am yesterday .
and woke up at 7.ooAM ish ~
the thoughts of all the silly memories
the family use to have with grnadpapi .


later at around 1.oo PM grandpapi's body will arrive home from the hospital.






promises never done .

it happened too soon...

It happened too soon.
I find myself staring at my sister as she was getting dressed for skool
at 7.15AM after 10 mins she went back into bed
i asked "mei, no skool ?"
she replied me " jie, i have fever."
then i fell back into sleep
woke up at 9.ooAM by a very irritating sound
by my sister's squiky Gameboy button.(she was playing pokemon)
GUGU and AH SAM were going to go to the hospital to look at grandpapi.




the next thing i knew it was around 3.ooPM
GUGU and AH SAM were back from the hospital
and mom just came back from work for lunch
i went down to have my late lunch
and they were having a coversation.
GUGU and AH SAM were talking about grandpapi's condition today
"He is in so much pain, since last night never slept, kept yelling . we don't know what is he waiting for. not to sound rude but seeing him like this suffer it hurts our heart. "
GUGU explained " I told him if he cant stand the pain, just go. no one will blame him . i even ask who are u waiting for? ah kit (MY big brother)?or ah toi(MY 3rd uncle)?
then mom ask " eyy when u ask who u should slow down see reaction who knows u say so fast he cant even nod or anything ''
GUGU even called ah toi(my sec. uncle)!on his cell. telling him "grandpapi almost dying! u want to see him or not! wad son are u! "







*** Screw him to bits from the bottom of my heart!! hate him to the max! so pissed at him not to sound rude and all. when grandpapi went in to the hospital the first day i was the 1 who informed him to tell him grandpapi is in the hospital and i was cry my tear duct off! " ah toi shu-shu, ah yea went in to hospital (in chinese) and u know wad he replied me!?!?!?!! " o.. " so relax tim!
i mean seriously!!! im the granddaughter and ur the son !!?!?!?!.***


After that grandmother woke up not long later
GUGU and AH SAM went back to the hospital
while mom went back to the office.



i can rmb.
it was around 5.ooPM i was watching tv
and my sis joined me after her nap.
it happened really soon.
around 6.15PM.
the phone rang.
mei mei picked it the phone infront of me
" hello,... harh?!?! huh?!?! ..... "
i could tell there was something not right
something harsh from the sound of her tone as she said each confusing word...
i looked at her her eyes the confuse innocent eyes
i ask her " wad? who was tat?"
she answered " baba. ah yea hen yuan zhung liaw "(dad, grandpapi in critical situation)
hou hou kor kor was walking into his room when he heard wad mei mei said
mei mei dressed changed from PJs to normal clothes
and we went straight to the hospital
in the car i was crying and mei mei was also crying.
upon reaching to grandpapi's bed. no 1 was there
as we walked closer. i could see my uncle(AH MOU SHU-SHU)ahead.
we walked to him to find tears in every ones eye.



after while. dad asked if we would like to see him
i went in first then mei then kor kor .
i saw grandpapi. and the tears jus flow uncontrollably..
but i knew it will be better this way..
grandpapi wont have to suffer too much.
after seeing grandpapi, dad told us to go home
as they would be behind our car.



and now im waiting...




rest in piece grandpapi.

toughts.

15. jan ! Uncle shockingly . still rmb how to drive in brunei!
he arrive at around 10 pm at my house alone cause
aunt dun feel well after the flight
shortly after reaching he went with dad
to vist grandpapi...

things honestly dun look so good .
im not cursing or anything but its the truth.
i havent told any 1 about him .
but i need advice lo
recently grandpa de leg has
become totally black
its due to improper blood circulation.

docs. have offered it to be amputated
dad agrees with it.
BUT!!! dun know why !
my grandpapi de all 7 sibling disagree with it
they all say " wan go better in full body form "
but my dad de 3 sibling including him want it to be amputated.
so that the disease will not spread up to his upper body
( better chance of living with less pain )
haiz , IF they do cut it off the 7 siblings would be very upset thus
" FAN LIAN "
haiz . how to do ? wad to do ? so foooooooking #$%^&*(&^%$#@!!!
they dun understand man !

i visited grandpa today
i called out " ah yea ".
and he reached out for me ><
as if to look for the voice where it was coming from !
doctor says he cant see any more !!
i really wanted to cry >
i really cant stand him suffer in horrid pain !
grandmami move him alil bit for diaper change
his facial expression already show that he is in great pain
very upset lo see grandpa like that .
worst of all he cant say where pain !!
see him like this very kerlian

every THAM family member
that is trying their best
to come back

i dun wish to stand by the side and look as if i dun know him nor am a passerby
i really want to help .
i want to fulfill my promise and i haven't even carry it out yet !
sad ! really dun know wad to do .
pass few days cant really sleep =.=
only wake up think of grandpapi man !
think of the wacko stuff we did and wad u did !

i miss the wacky stuff we use to do.

dates...

15 of jan. UNCLE(ah mo shu shu) and his wife (ah sam) arrive in Brunei from Canda.
18 of jan. GUGU and GU-JIONG arrive in Brunei from Canada.
23 of jan. KU-JIE and her husband uncle john will arrive in Brunei , from England.
26 of jan. SHU-GUNG arrive in Brunei from Taiwan.

all our prayers go to you.

retarded sunday =)

ok today is sunday GILA man !!
i 2 days liaw didnt sleep
dun know wads up .
since its sunday ight ?
sure got tamu ( veggie selling place )
so i decided to go O.O!
shockingly right ?=.=
so i sms my dad n told him
i wanna go xD
so they came to pick me up and
well i enjoyed tamu !
HAHAHHA i dun know y but mayb i had dirty taught then ehh
XDDDDDDDDDD!!

WOOT DOES THAT LOOK LIKE TO YOU !!!

ahahhaa!! the first thing i think of was boobs !!xD
and i totally said it out when my dad was beside me
my dad was like huh ? thouse are " po lu " OO !! AHAHAHAHAHA !!!!
my mom was like !! OMG !! " wen hua please !! "
AAHAHAHAHAA but i was laffing my asss off man
and my sis was like omg .. my sis !! xD but she was in discus lo xD!
my dad was like SOOO blur and shock when i said that xD!!

hahahaha!! so ~ now i know y old ppl like to go there!
KEKEKEKEKKEK!!!



after that we went to seria for breakfast =)
then went back home to the old house to clear up some stuff.



another thing happen xD!!

u know arr~~ me trying to impove my chinese and all
so i try to translate everthing from my dad to sister ( cause she knows more chiense T.T ).
around in the afternoon my dad was in the kitchen
suddenly had a phone call O.O!
as i was going out from the kitchen room to the dinning room
smth caught my ears xP
YES I EAVESDROP
he said "... fa dian ji... "
if im not mistaken it means electric generator
so to make sure . i asked my sis
whom was coming out from my room to the hall way
i shouted to her " hey mei ! fa dian ji is generator right? "
then she was like " WAD? fcuk dian ji ?"
no jie ! it means " fcuk crazy chicken "
i was totally stun !

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!


but anyway we finish packing all the kitchen stuff
my room not yet done and the study room still like got alot of stuff x_X


<3s>

memoriesss...

part2 of it all ~~

kekekekee !! lim and alas.
playing tan's
" PRINCESS CARDS !! "
AHHAAHAH!!

lionel ~~
leaving . LEFT in this case
on a jet plain

the guys ~
playing with tan's sword
thinggy =.=

all the while . they company made me feel better =)
very gay ehh ?xDDDDDD

I hear your whisper,
across the sea....

<3

I didn't promise a lot of photos or anything
but these are a few random ones~

This is when we were waiting at" moi nam" xP

i know right ~ so black and bad camera x_X !

lionel ~ vain as he can be xP

<3 .getwellsoon

The outing .

Blogging at " Moi Nam "
today . i woke up at 12 PM! seriously!
12 PM !!how cool is that!!
my dad even give me thumbs up =)
say first time so early =)
xDDDDD!! kekekekek
anyway.
i helped out with my mom's china
then went to new house .
to find that my dad still knows how to play
BASKETBALL!
even 3pointer yo~~
SO GENG !!
then went to dinner with
alas lim tew my big sister and wang.
but wang went away O............O!!!
saw cicilia =)
long time no see her x__________X!



<3 Grandpapi.

very upsetting

honestly i dun feel like blogging today.
but i cant bottle it up.
i eavesdrop and heard about the bad news
about grandpa from papi at the new house just now.
saying that the doctor found out that
grandpas blood has turned black.
woot ever that means by tone of his voice. it aint good
i know that my grandfather's leg is dead
and i know that they cant amputate it cause he is diabetic
but mamehh told me a few days back that
they found out what is wrong with grandpa and they fixed it
and now, its like
" call all the uncle and aunt to tell them about this , even ah kit kor kor too "
gosh !! so sudden really speechless !!
after reach back to the old house
i start to reminisce about the crazy cooked up wacky days i had with my grandpa.
then i stoped myself. i cant think that far yet =)
i shall not .




<3 Grandpapi. please get well soon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA !!!

=) hey hey there. Roxanne here ^^
today is the like 2nd of jan 2009?
awesome ehh ? how time flies. anyhu~
today is also my paternal grandfather's
17th birthday !
how cool is that =DD !!
prays he gets better
so that he can join us in the new house soon.